What I Thought About During Nap Time Today
Today, the baby finally drifted off to sleep after an hour-long battle of bouncing, pacing, and very dramatic yawns. I tiptoed out of the room, coffee in hand (reheated for the third time), and landed on the couch like it was a five-star resort. And then… my brain turned on.
It went something like this:
1. “Am I doing enough?”
This question haunts me. I looked around at the baskets of unfolded laundry, the dishwasher blinking “clean” for the past 24 hours, and my half-written to-do list. But then I reminded myself: my baby is safe, fed, loved. That’s not just “enough”—that’s everything.
2. “I miss me.”
I thought about the old me. The spontaneous, energetic, social me. The one who wore mascara for fun and actually enjoyed alone time. I miss her. But I also love this version of me—the one who knows lullabies by heart and has mastered the art of one-handed everything.
3. “Do other moms feel this way?”
I thought about the friends I haven’t texted back and the Instagram moms who make it look effortless. I wondered if they also cry in the shower sometimes. I like to think they do. We’re all just doing our best and hiding it in different ways.
4. “What’s one thing just for me?”
Today it was this: writing this nap time diary. Letting my brain dump onto the page instead of the endless scroll. It reminded me that I matter too—that my thoughts, even the messy ones, deserve space.
5. “I’m proud of myself.”
I don’t say it enough. You probably don’t either. But getting through today with grace (or not-so-much grace) is still getting through today. That counts.
Final Thought:
If your nap times are filled with thoughts that bounce between exhaustion, gratitude, worry, and hope—you’re not alone. These little windows of stillness give us a glimpse into who we are beyond the bottles and burp cloths. And that voice inside you? She’s still in there, strong and worth listening to.
